I’ve been where coronavirus patients now are. The ICU of the Amsterdam hospital in which I lay for six weeks last year — much of that time on a ventilator — is today filled with very sick people fighting for their lives. For those that survive, the challenges will not be over. Many will suffer from long-term physical, cognitive, and emotional problems resulting from being sedated. It’s called post-intensive care syndrome, or post-ICU delirium.
In Erika Edwards’ recent article for NBC News, she quotes Dr. Amy Bellinghausen at the University of California, San Diego, as estimating that up to two-thirds of ventilated patients may be affected by post-ICU syndrome. Symptoms include physical weakness and post-traumatic stress.
I suffered from physical weakness, dropping from 130 to 95 pounds and losing the ability to move during my six weeks in the ICU. Lying still is a wicked thing: your body needs time to recover, but in being quiet it begins to fade away. It took me six more weeks in the hospital to be able to walk gingerly out of there and onto a plane headed for home, where I’ve slowly regained all of my strength and most of my weight.
I also had cognitive and emotional challenges stemming from being sedated. I had very real dreams in which evil nurses were torturing me and telling me horrible things about other patients. I was certain that the hospital clocks were being changed to confuse me. I was frustrated that my family didn’t understand what was really going on.
I was lucky, though. These thoughts and the nightmares faded away in my final weeks in the ICU, and did not return as I continued to recover. They’re just stories now.
Erika Edwards cites doctors’ observations that the best way for patients to avoid post-ICU stress in the first place is to have their family at their side. That’s what made the difference for me. My husband, with whom I was traveling when I suffered the ruptured arterial aneurysm, our daughter, who flew in from Florida, and my sister, who flew in from Colorado, managed to be with me as much as 12 hours a day. The ICU nurses had to chase them out, telling them to take care of themselves, too. But those same nurses cut my family a lot of slack in bending the narrow visiting hours to let them be with me. They held my hands, they stroked my face, they talked with me, they laughed with me. I didn’t see when they cried. I just knew they were there.
The poor souls who are struggling to live as the coronavirus clamps down on them are bereft of family. This virus is robbing them of a crucial life line.
ICU patients need to have humans around to orient them, to calibrate them, to touch them, to look in their eyes and make them understand what’s happening. But that’s exactly what the COVID patients won’t get because they’re all being isolated.Dr. E. Wesley Ely, Professor of Medicine and Critical Care, Vanderbilt University
These patients are not alone, though. My Dutch doctors and nurses were compassionate, caring, and steadfast. I am imagining them and their medical colleagues in the world’s ICUs today, doing everything they can to care for their coronavirus patients. The Cleveland Clinic is one such place. A patient who survived COVID-19 thanked his caregivers by asking one of them to write a note on the glass wall they’d used to communicate with him. Here’s some of what he said:
Today I leave this ICU a changed person … not only because of your medical healing and God’s direction and kindness, but also with the fact of knowing that there are such wonderful people dedicated to the care and concern of others.” Here’s a Twitter posting with more.Mr. Brown, COVID-19 survivor, upon discharge from the Cleveland Clinic
I join the millions of people all over the world in clapping for these brave medical soldiers, first responders, grocery deliverers, post office employees, package mailing staff and all others who are our front line in this pandemic war. God speed.
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Thank you for sharing this candid look at what it’s like to be deathly ill. Your wonderful recovery offers a ray of hope to others. Thank you for continuing to help others. You’re a very special person and I feel privileged to know you. Virtual hugs Faith
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Thank you, Faith! The full Twitter post is very touching. Be well! Kelly